Healing What I Didn't Know

I thought I was on a journey to find one that was my one. 

I was so mistaken.

In one man I found the thing that saved me. I saw a future with Love instead of Death by Heroin.

20 years of that Hell...then Him.

I chose Him.

He chose Heroin. 

I felt myself slip into a warm bath of comfortable understanding when I attempted to take my life. Oh warm darkness so quiet and purity. 

Then light of belonging I never remembered having before that moment. A moment I remembered it all again.

It's remembering....

Not gaining knowledge....

When we die.

So through all the shity days, months and years since everything flipped outside-up and inside-down.....

I found an old book I left on a secret shelf in my heart.

It read to me the story of a diamond. 

2 souls of coal that love and pressure ignited a diamond.

He pressed a Diamond in my belly.

And I owe Him my everything and every breath since.

My journey has been to Him this whole time.

Not for me.

For a Diamond looking for a hug from his Dad.

I will love You

Oh You

Oh Heart

For all life given in all lifetimes.

And so will your son.

It's time hun.

It's time.