You want to be friends?!

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There is no going back to any kind of what once was. You can never just be friends with someone you gave your whole heart to, especially if they destroyed you out of the blue and forgot you even existed...like You did! That's not reality! You change after being in love! You change after you've had your heart broken! PAIN CHANGES PEOPLE!!! So no, we will never be friends. Friends don't set out to destroy friends in the ways You continue to do! If you were a friend, You would've worried about my survival. You wouldn't have made me endure the death decision for Jj. You wouldn't have lied about the car, the heroin, the money, where you were, what was happening..... FRIENDS DON'T WALK OUT ON PEOPLE THEY LOVE ONE DAY AND DISAPPEAR FOR A WHOLE YEAR LEAVING THEM WONDERING WHAT THEY DID WRONG!! You were never my friend! I stood by you through everything! Jail, rehab, relapses, lies upon lies.....and was still willing to forgive you and bring you home.....but you still blame me and refuse your wrongs. Now you took my career!! 
I WILL NEVER BE A FRIEND TO YOU EVER AGAIN! You have taken everything from me, and after all i did to love you.....
I just can't BE YOUR FRIEND!

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