The Healing of a Complicated Heart

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My anger over J.j. has simmered down a bit and I need to shift into positive, or I will end up setting fire to this town. Focus on my healing is priority now. I look at healing as chapters to write out. The old "I loved", "I lost", "I learned" bits...followed by "The rise and comeback" encore. How cliche is that shit?! Mine is more along the lines of "What the fuck", "Why the hell" and "Are you kidding me?!" ...followed by "That shit was way more painful than childbirth". Nevertheless, it is necessary and vital to do if I want to keep this big, beautiful heart I fought so hard for...yeah, it is worth the bumps and bruises I collect along the road to better days. I just wish I didn't have to in the first place...I wish he'd stayed....

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