Rawr...This Damn ❤

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I'm so pissed at myself! For letting anger push me to the point of hate. For feeling so strongly about a man who erased me from existence lickidy split. For LOVONG that man still !!!! No matter what I do or tell myself, I can not shake the love out of my heart for him! I just wanna scream because of the chaos inside my life flow operator! Every time I start missing him, longing for him, I have to punch said heart to wake up and realize that he DOES NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME...PERIOD! He is not missing me like I miss him! He is not crying over me like I cry for him EVERY FUCKING DAY AND NIGHT STILL! I want to not feel! I want to be numb! This is WAY too brutal! I can promise this though...NEVER AGAIN IN MY LIFE OR THE NEXT WILL I LET MYSELF FALL IN LOVE!

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