No Longer a Whole Heart

When I gave You my heart, I gave You the whole damn thing. I guess I'm finding it hard to explain...just how much You hurt me. I know I hurt You too, but You wanna know what I didn't do.... I never gave up. I forgave You for everything! I never erased You. I never brought up the same damn thing from the past, over and over just to leverage You with guilt and shame..like You so loved to do to me. I respected You and never lowered myself to secretly record You in Your most painful moments. Look, I apologized for everything I did or said, repeatedly, and even for things I did not do, but You still tried to blame me for it all. I never abandoned You. I wrote You every single day for almost 6 months to reasure You that You were the most amazing human in my world, but to hear You tell it, I never had a nice thing to say. The difference between You and me, it is that I treasure all that was good about You. I hold You in my heart and think of You every damn minute of every damn day. You still exist to me....but here I sit, alone, forgotten and labled a monster....all with a shattered, never to be whole again, heart.